It was a hectic morning, which it always is, for my mother. She was
in the kitchen making breakfast and preparing the tiffin for my father
and me. My elder sister had her examinations going on, thus she was
freaking out, and she was studying in a room next to the kitchen. She
demanded, “Maa make me a cup of coffee, will you?”.
In a prolonged voice my mother replied, “Just give me five minutes
beta; my hands are quite full now”.
“Please Maa I am already too stressed out, just give me a cup of
coffee”, replied my sister.
It had become a daily routine for my mother, waking up at 6’O clock,
taking a bath, waking my father up and forcing him to go for jogging,
doing her religious chores and then heading towards the kitchen wishing
that she would be able to complete all the work within time. Day in
and day out, the same routine, over and over again, just like the ever-ticking
clock which does not care for anything going around, it keeps
on ticking and ticking. That day too was a success, she was able to
complete all the tasks, but she did not sit back to enjoy any personal
space with the warm breath of a long-forgotten joke, reminiscing the yesteryear. Well it was her duty; she was supposed to do it.
That day at school I read about Sisyphus and the first image that
struck my mind was my mother’s. I was confused, “Why does the story
of Sisyphus seem strangely similar to my Maa’s?”. So when that evening
I went back to my house, had my delicious snacks, I decided to tell
my mother about what I read in school. “Maa would you come here for
a second please?”, I shouted.
“Not now beta, I am very busy now, I have to prepare the dinner
and then iron the clothes also. If it’s not something very important
can we talk about it sometime later?”, my mother replied.
“Maa, you know
I read something really interesting in school today.”
“What did you read beta?” she asked.
“I read about this Greek mythology about Sisyphus, he was a king
who did not respect Zeus, who was the king of Gods. So Zeus punished
Sisyphus. He was to carry a huge boulder up a hill only to see it tumble
down again, and this he had to go on doing forever and ever and ever.”
I answered.
“Interesting story beta, but now I need to go on with my work, okay?”
my mother said.
I hesitated for a moment and just when she was about to leave the
room I cried, “Were you also punished by someone Maa?” .
She turned around, surprised, her eyes were dilated just as if she
had been hit by a thunderbolt, she asked, “What are you saying?”.
“I meant, were you also punished by God for something? .I see you
everyday doing the same thing over and over again, and you do not get
any salary or trophies for it. I see you tired and upset, but you never
complain, just like Sisyphus, who had given in to his fate because he
knew it could not be helped. Did you do something wrong too?”, I enquired.
“No beta I wasn’t punished. What I do is my duty, which I do so
that my little angels can be happy.”, my mother uttered in her sobbing
voice, “And what gave you the idea that I was upset, I love what I
do, what I do make you happy, and whatever makes you happy makes me
happy too, do you understand?. So never ever think like this, I love
you beta, and no pain endured to make your life better can ever make
me tired and upset.”
“So if you weren’t punished, did you always wish to do this, right
from your childhood?”, I asked.
“Well I don’t know, I don’t remember what I wanted to do.”,
she replied.
“How can that be, there must be something which you wanted to do,
wanted to achieve.”, I said.
“Hmm, I really do not remember.”, she argued, but after a momentary
pause she said, “Well, you know, I also wanted to go out and have
a job or something.”
“So, why did you not pursue your wish.”, I enquired.
“In our day that was impossible, in my family we did not have time
for all this, I had to wake up early and work, then go to school and
then come back and help my mom cook the dinner. It was not possible.”,
she answered.
From where I was sitting, I could see her eyes, which were dried,
beginning to get moist again. But this time there was a strange shine
in her eyes, she seemed happy. The memories of her past brought with
it all those dreams and aspirations she had as a child, all those funny
stories she used to tell herself, all those times she just spent strolling
carelessly with her schoolmates, all those days she used to sleep on
her mother’s lap and all those years that were now only a part of
the long forgotten boulevard of her memory hall.
From the distance we heard the voice of my sister, she had just returned
from her examinations. My mother wiped her tears from the loose end
of her saree, adjusted her pallu, got up and went to ask my sister
if she needed anything to eat or drink.
By Ankit Agarwal
